Category: Reflections

Sometimes there was

nothing to do —

just a natural flow,

a stopping —

no need

to analyze or fix

or try so hard

to heal —

only deep connection

and gratitude

for those who were able

to meet me

in that place.

And so the thought came

to go back

to how it was

before there was

just this —

back when there was

up and down

and forward and back.

But of course I knew

by then

that there really was

no going back —

only this ever-deepening love.

Many times I reached

the place

where words can’t go,

where I somehow knew

that a step

in any other direction

would be less helpful

than standing still.

And so I found

just enough courage

and strength

to be still in my heart

and to keep going

straight through.

And so life became

a movement,

a prayer —

a continuous holding

and letting go,

an effortless reaching

toward the next

natural shift upward

and within —

no longer fearing

what was hidden

or clinging to what appeared —

meeting all experiences

with unspeakable reverence

and peace.

And so I began

to show up

little by little —

letting go

of all I had gathered

and carried

and held on to

and hoped for

for so long.

And though my steps were

often less than graceful

and parts of me

were sometimes frightened,

I never forgot

the truth

and the peace

of who I really am

and had been —

all along.

And so it was,

after all,

the quiet whisper,

the courage to trust

each small step

through and past

all that appeared —

the secret path

I couldn’t see

that led me always

back in

to my deepest heart.

And so by grace,

by my own persistence

and a little mystery,

I found way back

to my purest self.

And in the sweetness

of the return,

I didn’t long anymore

to be understood

or accepted

or loved.

I longed only

to somehow share

just a little

of the raw beauty I saw

in everything.

In a moment,

I decided to trust

just a little more

in my own experience —

just to see

what it would be like

to connect with a deeper me.

And so began

the most natural movement

as one by one

and without a thought,

I set down all that had seemed

so impossible

and so heavy

for so long

and this one moment began

to flow into the next.

And though there was still pain,

I knew that I was

forever changed

and would never be lost.