quiet reflections – Laurie's Notes

Never Again

November 28, 2016November 28, 2016 Laurie's Notes

AlI I had struggled with

for so long

on the surface

appeared much different

from the center

of my heart.

All of my

wounded places

were seen through

as parts of a whole

to be honored.

And that 3D reality

I had struggled with

began to,

ever so subtly —

shift…

from the deep

compassion there

in the holding

of each fractured piece

of my own heart

from within.

And I vowed to

never again let go

of this place,

no matter what

appeared on the surface.

Manipulating the surface

seemed a little silly

after that.

Straight Through

October 24, 2016October 24, 2016 Laurie's Notes

I found

if I could

reach far enough

without giving up,

at the bottom of

every painful emotion

and experience

was this pure love.

And the way back

into it

was always

straight through.

Continuing On, Tenderness

Beautiful Tenderness

October 23, 2016October 22, 2017 Laurie's Notes

There was

a beautiful

tenderness

in going my own way —

finding just enough

courage

to trust

my own heart.

No Words Needed

October 15, 2016October 15, 2016 Laurie's Notes

Thank you

for this quiet prayer

that frees my attention

to focus again

on this experience

in front of me

and to follow

where it leads.

May it always return

to the quiet space

in my heart —

where all experience

is honored —

where there is

always just enough

understanding and insight —

where no words

are needed

but flow

out sweetly anyway.

Amen

In Trust

September 27, 2016September 27, 2016 Laurie's Notes

Looking back,

I held the pieces

of my own deepest healing

all along.

I only had to

step out of

my own way

and allow them to

come together.

I had to step forward

and toss them all

in trust

that wherever

they landed,

it would be okay.

No Other Choice

September 25, 2016September 28, 2016 Laurie's Notes

I found a certain

rhythm within

the changing stories

and happenings —

an aliveness

I was once afraid

to trust —

until there was

no other choice

but to follow

this aliveness,

past the stories —

all the way

to nothing —

to its purest form —

where it was

less empty

than all I had tried

to fill it with.

Ever So Lightly

September 23, 2016September 23, 2016 Laurie's Notes

I began to listen

to the silence

and to the music

of life —

of notes and pauses —

finding refuge in

the silent spaces

and comfort in

words that flowed out

if I was patient

to wait my turn —

holding and letting go

ever so lightly —

in-between.

Before the Noise

September 22, 2016 Laurie's Notes

I began to listen

to life —

to show up

and listen

to what was around me,

perhaps as our ancestors

once listened —

before all the noise.

And so I began

to listen

a little more deeply —

not analyzing each sound,

but waiting for the music

to continue,

noticing my own part

within in it

and outside of it.

And I couldn’t imagine

it being any other way.

Just This

September 19, 2016September 19, 2016 Laurie's Notes

There was a quiet

holding and letting go —

the remembrance

of events now seen

as part of

the great mystery —

no longer needing

to figure out —

no longer grieving

what was given up —

not needing anything

to be different.

Just this.

All That Is Left

September 17, 2016 Laurie's Notes

When we have searched,

gathered and dropped

every word

we had thought

to carry back,

when all that

is left

upon our return

is the silence

in our hearts

because we have

both given up

and found our Love,

I will gather

the words again

for you.