Tag: anorexia recovery

The Echo of New Thought

Reflections January 4, 2018

A new kind of thought began to echo within. No longer believing old rambling thoughts to be worthy of so much attention left a space for the new.

The echo of new thought soothed and guided ever so gently.

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One Continuous Prayer

Tenderness December 28, 2017

The new chosen path was an unbelievable contrast to the old. From the outside, it didn’t always appear to be all that different, but from the inside it was clearly new. Instead of being pulled under by thoughts and experiences, all that appeared in my mind and in the world was seen as raw pieces of one continuous prayer.

Entangled

Continuing On February 1, 2017

I honor

all parts and pieces

of a heart

that showed itself

to be strong

and vulnerable,

suffering

and whole —

all at once.

I honor them all

because they refused

to sink quietly

into the back corners

of a heart that was

rightly their own.

I honor them because

the journey

was too much

for any one part

alone —

because turning back

or becoming stuck

would have been

easier.

Still they continued on

through the unknown —

refusing to give up

hope

that their seemingly small

bodies and actions

could reach

and lead each other

to the truth —

however entangled

it had become.

Into My Heart

Continuing On September 28, 2016

I found myself within

a beautiful motion

of holding

and letting go,

allowing attention

to land

where it pleased,

sometimes pausing —

always continuing —

unattached to labels

or the need to

connect all of the dots

too soon —

holding and honoring

all that crossed

my path

as this most natural

rhythm began to feel

more and more

like home —

letting go into

my own deepest heart.

Each Quiet Prayer

Prayers September 16, 2016

Thank you for each heart

that has answered

the call of Love,

showing up in a world

of great suffering

and great beauty,

being exposed

to all if it —

often intensely.

Thank you for each

quiet prayer

from each human soul

holding a sacred space

because the choice

was made

to look inside

or to reach out

for answers,

to do what was required —

to make this

sacred journey into the heart.

Thank you

for being here.

Amen

A Gentler Way

Reflections September 13, 2016

The time came

to find a gentler way,

to turn back

from the path of mind —

retracing my steps

just a little.

At first it felt

a bit lonely,

as there seemed to be

fewer taking this turn.

And I admit I missed

the crowds at times

and the paved roads

and maps.

But as I walked this

strangely familiar path

unfolding in front of me,

I began to remember

what it felt like

to walk on the earth,

to be free to notice

and allow my attention

to fall where it liked,

to experience the world

around me

and inside of me

without a constant

narrating mind.

And sure enough,

just as I had guessed,

I was okay

in this place —

where everything was

as it had been —

feelings and sensations

and challenges

and thoughts.

But without the narrator,

without the constant story,

they had taken on a

lighter feel,

softened somehow —

along this path

of the heart.

With Each Small Surrender

Continuing On September 2, 2016

For a while,

I followed the endless

promises of another 

way out

of pain and longings —

only to be caught

in cycles

of up and down

and forward

and back.

And so I began

to follow the pieces

of me

that could lead

in a different way —

calming and evolving

with each small surrender

and bit of courage

to keep showing up

as healer

of my own heart.