I settled down
a little more deeply in
to my heart,
holding all I found
outside of me
and within,
no longer wishing
to be some place else,
longing only
to know that very moment
a little more intimately.
Quiet Reflections and Prayers
I settled down
a little more deeply in
to my heart,
holding all I found
outside of me
and within,
no longer wishing
to be some place else,
longing only
to know that very moment
a little more intimately.
At a certain point,
it seemed most fitting
to move in the direction
of emptiness.
And so I settled in
to the silence
within
and a gentler way
of being.
Just a little past
what could be known
in the usual way,
rooted firmly
in my deepest heart,
I dared to continue
to keep my focus here —
just to see
what might happen.
It wasn’t always graceful,
but I learned
how to hold on
a little more tightly
when needed
and to let go
of preformed ideas
of how life should go.
And it was
the subtle little treasures
I would have missed
by taking an easier path
that always brought me
back to my true essence
and to peace.
There wasn’t time, really.
And there was no way
to be sure
that it would be
worth the risk.
But to my surprise,
after jumping in,
I found what I had
longed for
and hidden most deeply
there, in each moment,
just beneath the surface —
not far at all.
I learned to hold
and let go
of all of my experiences —
to hold a little longer
until all that was painful
was transformed
into something beautiful.
And then I remembered
how to listen directly
to silence.
In the center
of my heart,
I found
no concepts
and no words,
only the purest essence
of all of my experiences.
And though there was
the sense
of a returning
from the focused holding
in that place,
I found it was
and had always been
what was most true.
I had only forgotten.
When there were
no words,
I was silent.
And when there was
more than I could process,
I tossed it all
back up
and waited again
for the pieces
to fall back down
a little more slowly.
Sometimes I hold
just to see
what is here,
beneath the surface —
where it is safe now
to disappear.
I vowed to hold
all that appeared
for as long as it took,
to keep my focus
on what was
most real and true.
And ever so softly,
letting go
of unneeded pieces,
holding on
to the subtle messages
only my heart understood,
I crossed over
to the place
where quiet whispers
carried me —
where words couldn’t go.