Tag: eating disorder recovery

From My Heart

Reflections July 3, 2017

With a little practice,

I found gentler ways

of allowing

myself to be guided

from my heart.

Things that had seemed

overwhelming before

became mysteries

to unravel.

I began to get

a feel for this

gentler way

as little by little,

a bit slower at first,

I began to

notice and act

on clear insights

that led me

to one needed piece

and the next.

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Still Here

Reflections September 17, 2016

I have gathered thoughts

and tossed them

many times —

following the words

again and again

all the way back

to silence.

I have waited patiently

for insight —

only to watch it fade.

I have gone 

my own way,

taken each step

as a part

of the mystery.

I have gotten lost

and found

many treasures.

I have traced my

own Self

back to nothing.

And I am

still here.

A Gentler Way

Reflections September 13, 2016

The time came

to find a gentler way,

to turn back

from the path of mind —

retracing my steps

just a little.

At first it felt

a bit lonely,

as there seemed to be

fewer taking this turn.

And I admit I missed

the crowds at times

and the paved roads

and maps.

But as I walked this

strangely familiar path

unfolding in front of me,

I began to remember

what it felt like

to walk on the earth,

to be free to notice

and allow my attention

to fall where it liked,

to experience the world

around me

and inside of me

without a constant

narrating mind.

And sure enough,

just as I had guessed,

I was okay

in this place —

where everything was

as it had been —

feelings and sensations

and challenges

and thoughts.

But without the narrator,

without the constant story,

they had taken on a

lighter feel,

softened somehow —

along this path

of the heart.