surrender – Laurie's Notes

Without a Doubt

February 17, 2022February 17, 2022 Laurie's NotesLeave a comment

The delicate process of holding on,

letting go, and reaching without grasping

led to a gentler path.

There I learned the value of

tenderness and became willing to

set down many things in exchange for

a deeper connection with life.

I knew without a doubt that

whatever appeared would eventually lead

back to a tender place in my own heart.

And so I became willing to bear the ache

of leftover traces of unhealed and

unresolved experiences —

willing to be in this place where there are

no guarantees —

willing to show up in each moment

with a quiet prayer and renewed reverence

for the sacred journey,

however it unfolded.

Turning Back

March 14, 2019March 14, 2019 Laurie's Notes1 Comment

The was a gentle turning back

and dropping more deeply

into the space within my heart.

It was a concious surrender

to life itself

in each moment

as I learned to allow life

to flow more freely,

lost my footing,

and found my way back

again and again.

Even More Beautiful

June 22, 2018June 24, 2018 Laurie's Notes6 Comments

I let go,

trusting that wherever

the pieces fall will

be okay —

possibly even more

beautiful than if

I had tried to fit

them together

on my own.

— Laurie, What’s Right Here

The Release

March 10, 2018March 10, 2018 Laurie's Notes5 Comments

The next part was easy — at a certain point. Holding all of the pieces of my heart, there was just one more step, the release.

I stopped trying so hard to fit the pieces together as a separate little me. And I reached for something higher. It was the sweetest kind of surrender.

Everything Else

March 10, 2018March 10, 2018 Laurie's Notes2 Comments

Life became gentler with every gentle shift inside. At times it was painfully subtle. Sometimes I would look back, and the contrast could be seen as vast .

I stopped falling into smaller parts of me and began to hold them instead. I tossed everything else to God — holding and letting go at once.

Together

August 9, 2017August 16, 2017 Laurie's Notes12 Comments

At a certain point,

letting go

of everything

became the only real

option.

There was a

gentle surrender,

a resetting of parts

ready to work

together

in new ways —

a release of the

continuous

dialogue of mind

that would have

held me back.

This Natural Peace

June 13, 2017June 13, 2017 Laurie's Notes2 Comments

There was relief

in not needing

to fit

all of the pieces

of my heart

together

all at once.

I found comfort

in allowing life

to unfold

from within

and freedom

in experiencing myself

and others

in this natural state

of peace.

With a Surrender

May 30, 2017May 30, 2017 Laurie's Notes2 Comments

Moments of deep

peace always came

with a surrender —

a prayer of

admittance

that there was

really no acceptable

way of proceeding

alone,

as a separate part.

The peace was in

seeing a little more

clearly

from an expanded

sense of self.

Without Doubt

May 24, 2017May 24, 2017 Laurie's Notes13 Comments

It became clear

that everything most

sacred

had come out of

a quiet prayer.

I knew,

without doubt,

that every single

real treasure

in my life had

come out of

an ever deepening

inner surrender —

a sinking down

and trusting in

my own true essence

a little more

completely.

Whatever It Was

May 12, 2017May 12, 2017 Laurie's Notes11 Comments

At a certain point,

the only real

option was to hold

the space within —

to retreat

in surrender

to the quiet prayer

of my heart —

not knowing

how or if

it would affect

anything else.

But it was the only

real option left —

again and again.

The landing became

softer

after a while.

And it didn’t seem

to matter so much

what met me

in that place.

Whatever it was

had to know

the sweetness

of that same

surrender.